“I Am Not In Love With You” – PT 2

13 Oct

Text Message Conversation

Jamal:  What are you doing?

Me:  Making dinner

Jamal:  ??

Me: Tacos

Jamal:  On my way mami

Me: Don’t call me mami

Jamal: What’s wrong with that?  It’s all you.

Me:  Stop it

Jamal: Eventually you’ll see it.  You should just marry me and stop all this

Me: I hate this conversation.  I’m so sick of it.  You always do this.  No matter what I say.

Jamal: I’m on my way

Me: You weren’t invited

Jamal: Damn, you mad now?

Me: Yeah, actually I am.  Sick of you pushing more than friendship on me, and then trying to make me feel bad for not wanting the same thing

Jamal: I don’t do that

Me: Yes you do.  You did it yesterday.  Read your texts.  This is going to ruin our friendship

Jamal: You can’t be serious

Me: I will talk with you later

The past 24 hours have been frustrating as hell.  I don’t know what has gotten into Jamal, but after not mentioning the desire for a relationship with me for months, he’s been laying it on pretty thick.  I reached my snapping point mid-evening after 1 too many overtures.  I don’t mind talking to my friend- my friends have 24 hour a day support from me because that’s what a friend is- even if they just want to chat.  That doesn’t bother me.  And that’s totally normal for he and I.

But not this time.  This time it all tied right into relationship status.  And after ignoring my respectful but clear “no” to each, he kept going.  I decided I had to get blunt.

To be fair, Jamal sent a few follow up texts swearing he wouldn’t bring up “more than friends” ever again.

I don’t believe him, and why should I?  Eventually, it always comes up.

As evidenced by the text conversation above, I’m blunt about how I do and don’t feel.  The time for sugaring up the message has long since passed.

Things are further complicated by the simple fact that I am sick and tired of hearing a man tell me that eventually, I will love him, and eventually, I will come to see yadda, yadda, yadda, when I have done nothing but make it abundantly clear that I won’t ever feel that way.  Ever.

It’s one thing to have it said in jest- haha, it’s a joke.  But when that person is completely serious- that crosses a line.

He says he’s done and he’ll never bring it up again because our friendship means more, but…


7 Responses to ““I Am Not In Love With You” – PT 2”

  1. undressingHER October 13, 2009 at 9:53 am #

    do yall have sex? ever had sex?

    • courtingolivia October 13, 2009 at 9:56 am #

      No, no sex. Ever. I have no attraction to him in that way. That’s like having sex with my brother. F’real, it’s not an option. Why do you ask?

  2. undressingHER October 13, 2009 at 10:06 am #

    I thought that was why he was talking sh*t. Maybe he just does seriously like you. In most friendships, there is one party who would like for it to be more than just that. Not all, but most.

    I mean, if you would stop letting E make u cum all day, maybe someone else would have a chance, lol. Ah well, i cant blame any of them, you are kind of fine.

    • courtingolivia October 13, 2009 at 10:08 am #

      LMAO! *ahem* first of all, E and I don’t sleep together anymore! Second of all, yeah…

  3. undressingHER October 13, 2009 at 4:45 pm #

    yea, yea, if you say so, lol. I was just going by your blog.

  4. CamE October 13, 2009 at 7:51 pm #

    HI love your blog. I think you should be careful because he sounds like he has a little bit of stalker in him.


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